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Mar. 21st, 2009

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While the room Kale had initially lent from the Bar was rather bland, he'd quickly filled it up with stuff. More like parts of stuff as he currently was finding work repairing droids and other mechanical things. He was hoping to save up for a ship of his own, but for now the room suited his needs.

After all there was a bed, normally not very well slept in, but still a bed. Which is what Kale needed when he brought Atton up to his room.
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Oct. 27th, 2008

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Personalities Kale needs to integrate.

1. Kale. Middle or youngest of three children. He and Trever looked so a like, they weren't sure who was who at first. Likes machines and building things(got that from his mom, perhaps more literally than they thought). Quiet sense of humor.

2. Trever. Kale's twin. Likes animals and fighting. Strong temper. Could be a great Jedi... or Sith. Has a tendency for precognition. Kale's other half. Lover, sort of. Gray-sider.

3. Calenvir. Kale's father. Jedi Master who fell in love with a Jedi Hunter. Father of three. Quiet and firm. A Jedi Seer.

4. Zhin-Ja. Idiot padawan traveling companion of Kale's. Believed he was always right, because he was a Jedi. Or would be a Jedi. Didn't like Kale because Kale refused to bow to that belief. Dark Sider who thought he was light.

5. Luke Skywalker, Jedi Master, Zhin-Ja's master. First "New" Jedi after the Purge. Met him only once. Struggling to recreate a tradition that had become lost. Vaguely wished he could have helped him. Maybe would have, if circumstances were different. Light Side.

6. Revan. Sith Lord, Jedi Knight, Chosen One, million other things. Brilliant techno-path. Dislikes Kale and his family. Perhaps Dislikes is too soft of a word. Helped only for Tobias's sake. Strongest personality Kale's ever picked up. Very Dark Gray Side.

7. Tobias, the Exile. Kale's first real lover. Perhaps. Or perhaps someone Kale just latched onto. Teacher, yes. Cut from the Force, much like he did to Kale. (Perhaps by maliciousness on Revan's part... but...) At least he did care for Kale, a little while. Which Kale needed. Gray Side, with strong Moral Jedi Leanings.

8. Carcer. Revan's lover/master/somethingoranother. Serial Killer with an innocent smile. Likes knives. Disliked Kale for hitting on Revan, when Kale thought he was Carcer. And for hurting Revan. And probably for existing in general. Probably doesn't care he exists now.

So, that's

3G (1lg+2dg) + 2L + 2D = 2.5 L + 3 D. Or 2.5 + -3= .5 D?

Oct. 23rd, 2008

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I didn't say good-bye.

I suppose I should have. But I know if I did, I wouldn't have been able to leave. Seeing his face. Seeing my face, the hurt in it. I could never leave.

I'm fairly sure I'll be okay.

And if not... well. I'm not.

But I've been a bit too many people lately, and I need to sort myself out. Or maybe just try and mesh personalities better. See who I turn out to be.

For better or for worse.
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Oct. 5th, 2008

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Tobias says good-byeCollapse )
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Jul. 2nd, 2008


Couples Therapy catch-up

Haha. Even more catch up than with Trever.

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Jun. 11th, 2008

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[11.2]. History.

The Delvars have a fine old history. We can trace our line back to Revan himself. Revan isn't too happy about this. He doesn't like us very much. I guess I can't blame him. He's very good at holding grudges and I did hurt him pretty badly. Even if I wasn't in my right mind when I did it. I was, however, in his mind. I was him in someways. I'd absorbed a good deal of him though my psychometry. He utterly overwhelmed a lot of the others in my head.

He's amazing. The sheer raw power. The brilliance. The things that he did... dark and light are just unbelievable. But I remember it just as if I did it. I think that's how I scored those hits on him. I used his memories on how to fight. Force knows that I don't have the skill for it.

I'm no Master Jedi or Sith Lord.

I never will be.

I also remember his feelings to Bastilla. She loved him, but she controlled him. He doesn't like that. I can't blame him. Though I don't understand why he blames her child, his child. The baby didn't do anything against him and I thought -think- that children are highly treasured in both Mandalorian and Jedi cultures.

Maybe not Sith.

Still, it doesn't seem fair.

Maybe its because he wishes Trever and I, and the rest of us, were never born.

I wonder, sometimes, if he's a tiny eeny weeny bit jealous of me and Tobias. After all, they were lovers too, when they both were young.

patient: Kale Delvar (Star Wars OC)
partners: Trever Delvar hidden_sith and Tobias Donn force_killer
Word count: 264
Fandom: Star Wars

Apr. 25th, 2008


[10.1] Distance

Kale woke up alone and screamed. Trever wasn't there next to him. He didn't even feel him leave. But that was normal. Trever woke up earlier than him to check on the animals. He liked the animals more than Kale did. But this time it was different.

Trever wasn't there. On the farm. On the planet. He could barely sense him. Away gone. Far. He didn't know where. Trever hid it from him.

"Kale!" his mother cried, rushing into the room. Naldin just behind her. "What's wrong?" She sat on the bed and put her arms around him. He leaned into her, sobbing, clutching at her.

"He's gone, he's gone, he's gone," he repeated over and over again. "Gone, gone, gone."

Talia ran her hand through his hair, like she did to scare away nightmares when Kale was a child. "Trever?" Though Kale knew she knew that even before she said it. Who else would it be? Their father had died. Who else would it be? "Where did he go Kale?"

"I don't know! He's hiding." He shuddered, clutching tighter to her like a life line.

"Hiding? Why would he be hiding?"

"I don't know!" Kale wailed again. His mother made shushing noises, rocking him.

"Shh...you'll find him again. You will."


"I don't know. But you will. You two can't be apart long. You never are," she said. "You'll find him soon enough."

Kale curled up away from her, even though she was right, it still hurt. Like he had been stretched far in half.

Patient: Kale Delvar
Partners: Trever Delvar and Tobias Donn
Fandom: Star Wars OC
Word count: 256

Apr. 24th, 2008

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[9.3]I think the idea of having a soulmate is...

I think the idea of having a soulmate is... utterly ridiculous. Well, I think that's the wrong words. Highly improbable. Of course then there's the Force which works in mysterious ways and connects to all life so perhaps it does make someone more compatible with someone else. But I don't like the idea of there's someone I'm destined for. It means that all other relationships are just crap until you find the right one. They don't have the same importance. All relationships... good and bad are important. They let you change and learn things. Force knows I have a bad relationship with Revan. It started okay, but took a turn for the worst. I wish I could fix it somehow. It sort of haunts me, having screwed it up like that, but for the life of me, I can't figure out how to fix it.

But back on soulmates. How would you even know your soulmate is your soulmate? And what's wrong with going through multiple relationships not looking for the one? If you find someone you want to be with, then good. But what happens if you find someone you love, they don't turn out to be your soulmate and then you meet your soulmate? Do you just leave that other person behind, through them by the wayside because they're not the right one?

Of course my dating experience is extremely limited. This is just what I think.

Do I love Tobias? Yes. Do I think he's my soulmate? Probably not. Though, Trever is the other half of my soul, that's a different circumstance all together.

Patient: Kale Delvar
partners: Trever hidden_sith Tobias force_killer (non participant)
Fandom: Star Wars OC
Words: 267
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[8.1] Promise.

Insomnia had claimed him again, as it always did. Tonight he had Trever and Tobias on either side of him. The K in a T sandwich. He stared at the ceiling, hearing the cat probably breaking something. His mind drifted out to his parents who were at the compound, asleep together just like the three of them were. Should be.

And then to Carcer and Revan. He couldn't understand them. How could Revan wear a collar like that? To utterly submit like that. He didn't think he could do that. He couldn't do that. Perhaps because he wasn't submissive. He didn't demand to be on top, to dominate, he just wanted equality. And then they were sort of married.

To death do you part. He didn't think that he could do that. Promise that. Not with Tobias. As dearly as he loved him, he couldn't promise that. Fortunately, he supposed, he knew that Tobias would never ask that of him. He was too noble and not want to do that because he was probably going to go out and kill himself one of these days.

He rested his chin on Tobias' shoulder, feeling the man sleep. His even breathing in and out. His fingers traced the lines of Tobias' face and he leaned over to whisper. "I can't promise you forever or until death, but I do promise I love you. Right now. Even if it may change in the future. I do love you and I did love you. "

Patient: Kale Delvar
Partners: Trever hidden_sith and Tobias force_killer (non participant)
Fandom: Star Wars OC
word count: 251
Notes: Carcer and Revan belong to other people part of Kale's on going RP. Mentioned without permission.
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[7.1] Meet the Family

It's funny. Trever and I went from having no family to a lot of family. We grew up in an utter backwater planet only known for its agricultural college. Just us, Naldin and our parents. But we came from a huge family. A clan with a high percentage of force users. Red head and Force sensitive is what they called the Delvars. Then the Jedi purge happened and they all died.

Or so we thought. See, the non-Force sensitive Delvars survived. But I'll get to them in a minute. First the immediate family.

My father is Calenvir Delvar, a Jedi Master with a very strong gift of foresight. He has the Delvar hair and eyes. He's sort of stoic, I think. Or maybe just thoughtful. He's the one who taught me and Trever the basics of the Force. He's become head of the family, which is something that tires him.

Mom is named Talia. She was born a Corillian noble and left to become a mercenary and bounty hunter. She traveled with some Mandalorians for a while and picked up Mando'a. She has a talent with building and modifying weapons and things. I think I picked that up from her. Her favorite weapon is a modified blaster rifle that she calls her VBB which means Very Big Blaster. She's very threatening with it and a damn good shot.

Naldin is our older brother, by five years. He's not Force Sensitive, like mom, though he does have the Delvar hair and eyes. Brilliantly bright red and green. He's very sneaky and likes to cook. When we were younger he always managed to miss any pranks we played on him. His favorite, or at least preferred, weapon is a knife. Throwing knives. Any sort of knife. Though he's damn good with a blaster pistol. Mom made sure we all knew how to shoot.

Then there's Trever. My twin. My other half. He's me and I'm him. That's all there is to it.

Patient: Kale Delvar
Partners: Trever hidden_sith and Tobias force_killer (non participant)
Fandom: Star Wars OC
Words: 327

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